Tears Today
Watching Jessica leave for work got me to thinking about the day she leaves in August and doesn't come home to sleep in our home. So, I started crying........ I cried and cried and cried....... Today has begun in tears, is still being spent in tears, and probably will end in tears tonight. Everything on t.v. today has me crying......
Enchanters First Competition of 2010-2010
The first competition for this school year started as a bittersweet experience for this Dance Mom. This would be the first performance that Jessica has not danced in since she was 3 years old, Julianne would have her first solo as an Enchanter, and Jessica would not be able to attend with us since she had to work. Spirits were high, but they soon were buried beneath the tears of a mom, a daughter, and her team.
In the first 5 seconds of kick line, Julianne fell! I instantly had that feeling of not being able to move and yet wanting to run on the floor and pick her up. My little trooper (16 is little, lol) kept dancing through her tears and the pain, while we watched from the bleachers in tears and in pain for her. After she fell, you quickly hear me say something not appropriate to say hear, cry out "Julie", and then figure out I stopped filming as you look at my pants for the rest of the dance.
She stuck it out and did her solo, unfortunately placing 6th, as she had to change some of the harder moves in her head while she was dancing! A few hours later, one ER visit, and a trip to Chili's had her calm enough to sleep. It is one in the morning and I am not sleeping, I am reflecting.
Verdict: No dance for at least 10 days (this takes her out of the Enchanter Dance Show) and we need to visit an orthopedic surgeon.
The fun never ends...... Julianne is always and forever FIRST in my eyes.
In the first 5 seconds of kick line, Julianne fell! I instantly had that feeling of not being able to move and yet wanting to run on the floor and pick her up. My little trooper (16 is little, lol) kept dancing through her tears and the pain, while we watched from the bleachers in tears and in pain for her. After she fell, you quickly hear me say something not appropriate to say hear, cry out "Julie", and then figure out I stopped filming as you look at my pants for the rest of the dance.
She stuck it out and did her solo, unfortunately placing 6th, as she had to change some of the harder moves in her head while she was dancing! A few hours later, one ER visit, and a trip to Chili's had her calm enough to sleep. It is one in the morning and I am not sleeping, I am reflecting.
Verdict: No dance for at least 10 days (this takes her out of the Enchanter Dance Show) and we need to visit an orthopedic surgeon.
The fun never ends...... Julianne is always and forever FIRST in my eyes.
Friday Facts
Today's fact is:
"Almost" is the longest word in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order."
"Almost" is the longest word in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order."
I Did It!
I ventured over to Leelou's Blog Layouts and took the plunge. My heart was pounding because I was so afraid I would mess this up. Kudos to Leelou for the goof proof directions! I love my new look so much that the insomnia is almost bearable..... I can stay up and look at my pretty blog design, LOL. Now to figure out Google Docs, Scribd, and all this other blog stuff. I have a few more sleepless nights on the horizon....
216 Days to Go.....
It is 12:03 a.m. and I am awake, again. My body is tired, my mind is not, so here I sit. I wonder if the nights from now until Jessica leaves to college will be sleepless, moreover, will the nights over the next 4 1/2 years be sleepless? I better start putting this creative mind of mine to work with some D.J. Inkers teacher tools, rather than sit here in the gloom and doom of empty nest contemplation. My poor 16 year old, Julianne, is probably thinking that I will not leave her side since I won't have to divide face time between her and Jessica for a while. Newsflash: she is so right!
I guess I have myself to blame. I nurtured, taught, loved, laughed, molded, scolded, kissed, squeezed, hugged, prayed, and bled for Jessica (I always will.....) so that she would one day be able to venture out into this world and make her way within it. Our children are definitely our hearts walking outside of our body. I never felt this more than at this very moment.
The journey continues......
I guess I have myself to blame. I nurtured, taught, loved, laughed, molded, scolded, kissed, squeezed, hugged, prayed, and bled for Jessica (I always will.....) so that she would one day be able to venture out into this world and make her way within it. Our children are definitely our hearts walking outside of our body. I never felt this more than at this very moment.
The journey continues......
Random Acts of Kindness
Each year, from MLK day to Valentine's Day, I challenge my first graders to perform random acts of kindness. The challenge is to perform 100 acts during that time as a class. I send a letter home to let their families know to be on the lookout for any kind acts performed. It is so hard for my little ones to do this randomly and without letting anyone know "Hey, look at me! I am doing something for someone else.". They want credit for every little thing, LOL. Each time they are seen performing the random act, whoever spots them must write a letter to the class as documentation. We even get the staff involved, so what they do in school counts too!
I am so proud of them each and everyday when my students turn in their letters. They love when I read them out loud, they get their sticker to let everyone know what they did, and they they get to put a sticker on our 100 chart. The chart has a faint picture of Martin Luther King Jr. (I found it on Edhelper years ago) on it to remind students of why we need to pay it forward with these random acts of kindness.
Try this with your students next year, they will astound you with just how kind they can be!
Janine
I am so proud of them each and everyday when my students turn in their letters. They love when I read them out loud, they get their sticker to let everyone know what they did, and they they get to put a sticker on our 100 chart. The chart has a faint picture of Martin Luther King Jr. (I found it on Edhelper years ago) on it to remind students of why we need to pay it forward with these random acts of kindness.
Try this with your students next year, they will astound you with just how kind they can be!
Janine
219 Days to Go (more or less)
Yesterday was such a busy day for me, so I came home and didn't even turn on my computer..... It is a rare day when that happens!
Today marks 219 days until Jessica goes off to college. The date isn't exact, but it is close. The amount of days doesn't make a difference to me. I am equally sad on any given day to think that this baby I nurtured will be out on her own. As proud as I am of her, I can't fathom not having her in our home every day. I need to get through not only the next 200 or so days; I also need to get through the next 4 years.
I am comforted that I will share the journey here as the written word comforts me like nothing else can.
Today marks 219 days until Jessica goes off to college. The date isn't exact, but it is close. The amount of days doesn't make a difference to me. I am equally sad on any given day to think that this baby I nurtured will be out on her own. As proud as I am of her, I can't fathom not having her in our home every day. I need to get through not only the next 200 or so days; I also need to get through the next 4 years.
I am comforted that I will share the journey here as the written word comforts me like nothing else can.
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